that SOMEONE i used to...

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things change!
people change!
and so feelings change..
guess its the only constant thing in this planet.."CHANGE"..
i used to "like" this person not knowing about that special feeling that i had for him until i woke up that day and found out that i feel something more for him..(and to make things worse..its the very first time that i felt that way for someone)..i pretended at first ignoring what i feel for him..i dont have the tiniest clue on how to handle the situation..the more that i tried to pretend the more that i fall deep..seeing him completes my day..talking to him puts a smile on my face..being at his side made me forget the rest of the world that all i care about is only him..i lost focus whenever he is with me..and made my heart beat faster..
here's the one tiny problem..he is one of my best buddies at school..SO! thats it! the PROBLEM! of all people why him?!? i honestly dont know the answer to that..
so i really tried hard to fight what i feel for him but its so damn hard coz i get to see and be with him everyday..then one day things started to change..
i will never forget that day when he didnt talked to me for the whole day..that time when i passed by he didnt even say hi nor hello like i was just a stranger to him..and he stopped hanging out with us since then..i grab this chance to revert my attention and get a grip about my feelings..it felt awkard at first and i sensed some changes the way he talks to me and well the way he treats me..
and from then on everything started to change.. and thats like a big wall separating us..i knew that he's keeping his distance and it did hurt me..but then it helped me a lot to think things through..
if there is one thing that i would change..that would be telling him about the way i feel for him..eventually i did but its too late..i sometimes regretted it but then it taught me a lot of lessons..that its not wrong to love its just that there are times that you had it for the wrong person..
ive been a coward..im just afraid that it would ruin our friendship..it has been a very great experience for me..and time will come that i can have the right love at the right time for the right one..
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on a long extended vacation!

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how's it like to be away from the outside world? with only limited chances to go out and hang out with your best buds? kinda boring..nope not kinda BUT totally boooriiing! tsk! tsk! tsk!
ive been away from the things that ive been used to or lets say "my daily routine" and guess what?!? its freaking been 6 months! 6!
due to some major disasters not to mention unexpected occurrences that explains why im stuck in here!
haha!
and all i did for the past 6 months..nah dont ask me about that coz its really useless! haha!
cant wait to go back to school again! *sigh!
indeed it has been a major disaster!
but then..well it pisses me off!
haha! and i cant do anything about it!
crap!
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